Wednesday, August 20, 2008

More Sad News

Joseph continued to decline today. His MRI today showed that not only was the tumor back, but it was four times as large as it was after the surgery last month. He also had significant hydrocephalus (swelling) from the tumor blocking the drainage of the spinal fluid from his brain; but the MRI also showed evidence of some herniation (which basically means that the pressure was so high, it forced the brain into areas where it shouldn't be). With all of this going on, they said that they do not expect him to live more than a few days. We figured that he was having some tumor regrowth and knew that these new symptoms were alarming, but we were not prepared to hear this news.

So, after talking with a quality of life doctor, we all decided that the best course of action for Joseph is to take him home, make him as comfortable as possible, and keep him pain free. There are some things that they could do to relieve the pressure, and we could start the new chemo, but they used the term "days" to describe how much time those measures would buy us. We definitely feel that he has suffered enough and to put him through more surgeries or even another IV stick would be cruel.

We are really grateful we got to meet with this new "quality of life" doctor. He is a neuro-oncologist who is starting up programs in hospitals to help families adjust to life with a very sick child. Speaking with him today was very informative and helpful and gave us a lot of peace about the immediate future. He was able to read his MRI scan and tell us exactly what was going on, but he was also very emotionally supportive and encouraging to us as parents. I had prayed this morning that God would send us someone to help us know how to help Joseph in these last days, and this man was a definite answer to that prayer.

We are spending the night here in Memphis with Jennifer and Matt and then we'll be leaving in the morning for Nashville where Joseph will get Hospice care at our house. He isn't in constant pain, but he can get pretty severe headaches, so we'll be giving him medicine whenever he needs it. He is very lethargic and has been sleeping most of the past two days.

Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes-- the only times that he was happy and smiling today was when he was opening presents and talking about opening presents. Please keep praying for us: that Joseph would be pain free, that we would have strength to get through this, that we would feel peace about everything, and that our final days together would be special.

225 comments:

Anonymous said...

Dear GIllian and Allen,

Our hearts are broken. I just don't know what to say other than we will be praying for this time with Joseph--that GOd would give you a peace that surpasses understanding. We grieve with you tonight-and in the days to come.

love,

paige

Anonymous said...

SJ sent us an email on facebook about this. We're so heartbroken. I hope and pray that these next days with Joseph are ones that filled with the love of Christ - for him especially, but also for you and your beautiful family. Please give him a big hug and a kiss from the Cunninghams and tell him we have loved him so much this last year and will love him forever and ever. The great big arms of our Savior have never dropped any of his children, and I am so happy to know that he is a part of our father's family.

Love all you so much.

scott cunningham

courtney said...

I'm so sad for all of you. Know our prayers are with you tonight.

Allison said...

My heart breaks for you and my prayers continue to go out to you tonight and in the days to come.

Praying, praying, praying......

Melody Lemonds said...

Praying for peace and understanding. I am so sad. Please know my thoughts and prayers are with your family.

Love,

Melody

Laura Matthews said...

continued prayers for your precious son and family tonight.

Chris and Melissa Cooper said...

We are praying for you and your family. May the Lord's peace and comfort be present with you all. Much love - Chris and Melissa

Rhondi said...

Praying for your sweet family in the coming days ahead. May God give you peace & strength.

lindsey said...

there are no words. our hearts are breaking for you. please know you are constantly in our prayers.

lindsey ozier

Anonymous said...

I am so sad to hear this news about Joseph. I know that I don't know you personally, but thru Jennifer I feel like I do. I am praying for Joseph and for your family. "May the Lord bless you and keep you..."

In prayer,
Ashli Avis

Courtney said...
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Courtney said...

You have my prayers.

-Courtney S.

Melissa P. said...

praying with a heavy heart.

beth said...

I am so sorry! my heart is breaking and I am at a loss of words. We love you all, please call if you need someone to listen.
beth

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Joseph! You can't even imagine how many people your life is touching. We are praying fervently!

Lindsey Harman

Anonymous said...

devastated and crying. praying for joseph. praying for you two and holly.

- ange

amberhess said...

Our hearts are breaking for you. We will be praying that these next few days will be as pain free as possible for Joseph and that the Lord would comfort you greatly.
I am so sorry.

sniemann said...

There are no words. Just know we have dozens here in Dallas praying for your dear family.

Shannon and John Niemann

Becky F. said...

I am praying for you all, all the time.

Michael said...

We are crying and praying for you.

Michael & Emily

Anonymous said...

we are praying for peace & strength for joseph & all of his many loved ones.

jenny & alex winston

Anonymous said...

Gill, Allen and family-

Our thoughts and prayers are with you all tonight. May God give you some peace as you tread through this valley. Praying constantly

Carey Heid

Megan said...

I am without words. I am praying for all of you to have peace. Travel safely back and much love.
Cousin Megan

Andrea said...

I am so sorry. I really don't know what to say but I am praying for yall.
Andrea Lucado

suzanne morris said...

I am so, so, so, sorry. Praying for strength and comfort that only God could provide right now. We love you.

Heinzfeet said...

We are weeping with you tonight. Our hearts are so grieved. We love you so dearly!

Anonymous said...

I have been following your blog for a while, and I am truly sorry that you have received this news. I don't know any of you personally, but I can say with certainty that you are all truly blessed for having each other. I pray that your faith stays strong, despite this huge test you have had and will continue to have. That a little boy possesses such obvious strength and courage humbles me, and surely many others as well. For all that has happened there is no earthly justification, but I hope that Job Ch. 28 can offer even a little comfort to you: "Surely there is a vein for the silver, and a place for gold where they refine it...But where shall wisdom be found? and where is the place of understanding? Man knoweth not the price thereof; neither is it found in the land of the living...God understandeth the way thereof, and he knoweth the place therof. For he looketh to the ends of the earth, and seeth under the whole heaven..."

Please know that your family has touched my heart, and I pray for both of you, your daughter, and the rest of Joseph's family and friends.

Sara Wade said...

Oh, Gillian and Allen. My heart is broken. We are definetely praying for you all. We love you and we love Joseph and we know that our Father loves you and cares for you and will sustain you. Praying, praying, praying...

Love,
Rob and Sara

Amy Lafayett said...

Praying for all of you.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you and asking for God's peace. What a joy to know Him and know that He is with you and will continue to be.
You are being prayed for.

Lauren Sheehan
in Memphis

Melissa said...

Please know you are in our hearts and prayers in Tuscaloosa. We are thankful for the hope and peace that can only come through Christ. Please know you are all loved.

Amy Lafayett said...

Praying for all of you.

Jeanne said...

Dear Gillian and Allen, I'm shocked and so heartbroken for you all! Know that you are in our prayers--for peace; rest in the Lord; sweet, sweet times with Joe P and Holly in the next days; and for pain relief and peace for Joe P.,that he would rest in his Jesus. Thank you for allowing us to walk this hard, hard journey with you. Thank you for your faith and perseverance, even in the darkest of moments. My tears flow with yours and those of all your family. Love to you all, Jeanne

Anonymous said...

Our hearts are broken at this latest news. We know that God's peace passes all understanding, and that's what we are praying for your sweet family now. Joseph's life has touched many--so many that never knew him personally. Even little Ben still prays for Joseph every night. We love you and are sending birthday wishes--

Mark, Ellen, Becca, and Ben

Jimmy and Courtney Armistead said...

Allen and Gillian, our hearts are broken and heavy for you tonight. We will continue to pray hard, for Joe and for strength and some sense of comfort in the midst of this terrible nightmare for the two of you and Holly. I'm sure there are no words that can comfort...but we will be praying.

Jimmy and Courtney

Rebecca said...

Thank you, Allen and Gillian, for sharing your lives with us and for allowing us all to be such a part of this time in your lives as a family. I am beside myself after this post -- crying and so, so sad. I will continue to pray and lift up your precious family to God.

Birthday wishes to Joseph though it's late in the day.

With love,
Rebecca Z

bella said...

Happy Birthday Joseph!!

Your life touches us all. Peace and strength as you face the next few days. You are in the hands of the Father.

Much love,

Will, Bella, Olivia and Aaron

Craig and Gwen said...

Gill - I feel so sad - I love ya'll so much and I'm praying for every step ya'll take right now -

Much love - Gwen

Jane said...

dear gillian and allen,

this is holly patton, i dont know if you remember me. i just wanted to let you know that you are in mine and my family's prayers all the time. i pray that the next few days will be filled with love and that Gods plan won't seem such a mystery.God's mercies are new every morning. you are surrounded by love and prayer and you are a perfect example of parents striving for Christ. all the pattons are you keeping you in their thoughts and prayers.

love,

holly

Anonymous said...

Wow, I am heartbroken for your family and I don't even know you. (We are friends with the Platts and have found out about your story through them.) I will be praying for all of the things that you asked for and ask that God would give you immeasurably more than you could ask or imagine in this time. With love, The Carson Family in Arizona

Laura R said...

Oh Allen and Gillian - I don't know what to say. Your strength and fortitude amazes me. Even now as you are facing this increadibly tough time, your tremendous faith is clear and shines like a beacon. I am glad to hear the quality of life doctor was an answer to prayer and was able to give you clarity and peace. We will be praying for all of you.
With love,
Laura

Laura R said...

Oh Allen and Gillian - I don't know what to say. Your strength and fortitude amazes me. Even now as you are facing this increadibly tough time, your tremendous faith is clear and shines like a beacon. I am glad to hear the quality of life doctor was an answer to prayer and was able to give you clarity and peace. We will be praying for all of you.
With love,
Laura

So Blessed said...

No words...but many heartfelt prayers.

Jon and Katy said...

Our hearts are with you and we're praying for you.

Tracy said...

Dear Gillian, Allen and family~

I have been following your blog for months now (I'm a friend of Lisa Starr's...). I have been touched by your faith as a fellow Christian and your tenderness to your son as a fellow parent.

Please know that strangers are praying for your family...

Tracy Glover
Lubbock, Tx

Audrey said...

praying

Anonymous said...

I've been following your blog for several months now, but this is the first time I've written. As so many have said, there are just no adequate words to convey the deep sadness we all feel at this latest news. Please know that you are being held up in prayer by many, many people. May God give you strength, wisdom, and peace in the midst of this storm.

Julie (a friend of Jennifer's in Memphis)

Sally said...

Heartbroken & praying.
Praying for supernatural rest & strength.

Sally & Wes

Kate Etue said...

We've been in tears and in prayer all evening. If you need anything at all, you know how to reach us. And meals will start arriving to you guys tomorrow. So don't worry about that.

If anyone posting on here wants to bring a meal, please email me at kate.etue@comcast.net

Anonymous said...

Gillian and Allen - we are grieving with and for you guys right now as we read this update. And we are praying to our heavenly Father on your behalf, and for little Joseph...

Beth Ann and Jason Brown

stephanie malone said...

gillian, allen, and family...we are praying for you guys. for the wisdom of the doctors and caretakers, for you and your family's safe travels over the next few days, and, of course, that you and joseph feel Christ's peace both physically and spiritually.

stephanie malone, allsaints pres. (memphis)

anna said...

Dear Allen & Gillian,

I have no idea how you were able to write what you have, but we're so thankful to be privileged to pray for you. We pray for peace that passes understanding for you and Joe and Holly, and for rest for Joe with no pain. We pray God's mercy for you, His love endures forever.

Love,
Shane & Anna Caudill

Reed's mom said...

our hearts are heavy for you all....we are lifting you up to Jesus in this journey ahead of you. love you all, the willis family

Holly said...

Dear Gillian and Allen,
I am incredibly sorry to hear the news from today. My heart broke more and more as I read through the post. I can't imagine how you are doing right now, but I pray that the Lord will keep you all in the palm of his hand right now and close to his heart.
Love,
holly

Anonymous said...

Dear Peabodys,
We are heartbroken as well. Praying for mercy from the Lord, for a peaceful journey to Nashville, for beautiful moments with your beautiful son. We are praying for all of you, and we are so sorry. Tell Joseph he has melted hearts and shown Jesus' love and courage to so many grown ups. Happy Birthday, Joe P!

Alison Fontenot

Christy said...

Grieving and pleading.

*the Jones family* said...

How I hurt for you all....
We will pray for you all and that sweet Joseph will feel so much peace as he is going home to be with a Savior who loves him insurmountably.

Antonia said...

My heart is simply breaking for all of you. I can't even begin to imagine what you are experiencing. The tears are flowing tonight in Texas and we are pleading with the Lord. You are all in our thoughts and prayers constantly.

carriehayes said...

i am so sorry. i am praying with many tears for you all.

Mary Vagnoni said...

Praying through the tears that God will give you the strength to get through the next few days and that they will be "special" with your little angel

Anonymous said...

I will be praying all night and in the days to come for your precious family!

Sherra Smith
Chattanooga, TN

katie said...

my heart is breaking. praying hard for the next few days and months to come. josephs life has told a beautiful story and it wont end here. you are in my heart and prayers...katie

Madonna Norton said...

I haven't written you before, but I have been following you and your family for a long time. I'm actually the person who put Jack's family in touch with you. I just want you to know how sorry I am, and that I am praying for you. I am also praying that Joseph will be pain free during this time. God bless you.

Hutchie said...

Allen and Gillian, I am so sorry to hear this heartbreaking news about Joe. Michael and I are thinking of you and praying for you and your family.

dr_bristow said...

My heart is breaking for you all. Praying for Joseph and for your family during this most difficult time.

Jody (atlanta) said...

My heart breaking for you all. There are no words...praying. Love you. Jody

Our Family said...

First, to Joseph - Happy Birthday! You have no idea how many people love you even though most of us have probably never met you.

To Allen, Gillian & Holly - I am so sorry. My heart breaks for your family tonight. My whole family will be praying for the days you have left to spend with your sweet & spunky Joseph & for Holly as she tries to understand.

There's a song called "Streets of Heaven" by Sherrie Austin that came to mind as I read your post. May God hold Joseph's tiny hand when the time comes for him to let go of yours.

Again, we are so sorry & will keep praying for you all & hoping that you will find moments of joy in your time left together and that Joseph would be pain free, peaceful and surrouned with love. And as a mom I'm praying that you get to see his smile & hear his laugh again in that time too.

Again, I am so sorry.

Jeremy & Elizabeth said...

Praying round-the-clock for you and your sweet family...

The Owens

Katie said...

My heart is breaking for you all and your sweet little boy. Praying for you and crying with you.

Katie Patton, member of Good Shepherd PCA Nashville

Anonymous said...

You are loved. felix and jodi

Anonymous said...

Dear Allen and Gillian,

We are deeply grieving this news with you. Joseph is so courageous. You all are so courageous. We are praying.

with love,
Josh and Keely

Sarah Partain said...

Be still, my soul:
the Lord is on thy side.
Bear patiently
the cross of grief or pain.
Leave to thy God
to order and provide;
In every change,
He faithful will remain.

Be still, my soul:
thy God doth undertake
To guide the future,
as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence
let nothing shake;
All now mysterious
shall be bright at last.

Be still, my soul:
the waves and winds
still know
His voice who ruled them
while He dwelt below.
Be still, my soul:
when change and tears are past,
All safe and blessed
we shall meet him at last,

Be still, my soul:
when dearest friends depart,
And all is darkened
in the vale of tears,
Then shalt thou better know
His love, His heart,
Who comes to soothe
thy sorrow and thy fears.

Be still, my soul:
the hour is hastening on
When we shall be
forever with the Lord.
When disappointment,
grief, and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot,
love's purest joys restored.

Be still, my soul:
the waves and winds
still know
His voice who ruled them
while He dwelt below.
Be still, my soul:
when change and tears are past,
All safe and blessed
we shall meet him at last.
All safe and blessed
we shall meet him at last.
All safe and blessed
we shall meet him at last.

Be still my soul.

((Words by Katharina A. von Schlegel
Music and lyric arrangement of this version by Rick Jensen))

Sarah Partain said...
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Jessica Eves said...

I'm so sorry for your family. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

randibisme said...

My heart is absolutely broken for you. I am so very sorry and please know that Joseph's life is touching us all and impacting our lives in ways in which people who have lived 100 years have not been able to do. Thinking and praying for you all. We are holding you in spiritual hug tonight.
Love you guys,
Randi Booth and family

eugene_shim said...

peabody family,
we are so sorry. our thoughts are with you.
-shims

Heidi said...

Praying for your peace and comfort tonight.

Jody (atlanta) said...

Gillian, My handprints are there in spirit...please put your hands in mine. You know I would do anything for you. Safe travels, Prayers, and HUGS to Allen, You, Holly Bear and Joseph. Please tell Joseph how much Abiagil misses him and loves him. I am grieving with you. I love you all so much.

Love, Jody

Anonymous said...

I was linked to your blog a long time ago from antonia. I have followed it ever since and prayed for you and your son ... and wondered how you did it. I have never posted, but have read and prayed from one family's heart to another. I am praying for you right now.

brooke

Dee Dee said...

Praying; nearly speechless in prayer, but He knows.
May He be your Rock and your strength.

Audrey said...

up late, can't sleep, crying and (trying) to pray.

melissa Trevathan said...

thank you for sharing joseph with us all-i am praying for you - continually

love, melissa trevathan

Anonymous said...

Happy Birthday Joe!

We thank God for the meaning in your life! Through the expression of faith and reliance on God's Love and Grace, you and your family make the rest of us ashamed of our selfishness and at the same time inspire us to love more. God is working through you in ways beyond our ability to know, yet not beyond His ability to move us by. You will see Your Father when he comes close for a hug and may you hear Him say, "I love you."

Thank you, Joe!

God's Love, Peace, and Mercy be poured Graciously on you-

Gb, Jennifer, Ari and Iain
Memphis, TN / All Saints

Anonymous said...

I don't even know your family... I heard about your blog through a friend who doesn't know you either but has a friend who does... please know that my heart is breaking and I am weeping and praying for y'all - but what hope that we have in the fact that the world is being restored by the Lord, even through incomprehensible times like these. You are heavy on my heart right now.

randibisme said...

Happy Birthday beautiful boy,
We love you so very much!
Chris, Randi, Nate and Tony Booth

Ruthanne (Mayfield ) Szenasi said...

I was in bed but couldn't sleep...I didn't know why. Just came downstairs to get a snack and thought I'd check email. I have no idea how you found the strength to type that post, but I am thankful that you did, and that I managed to read it before I went to bed. I will be on my knees tonight and in the coming days...and keeping a close eye on your blog. I love you and am lifting your family up to our heavenly Father...

love,
Ruthanne

Nana Shoemaker said...

I was connected to your blog many months ago through our daughter, Julia Connelly, and have prayed along with so many on your journey with sweet Joseph...this grandmother's heart is crumbling with grief for you all, yet...
"I know that my Redeemer lives,and that in the end He will stand upon the earth. And after my skin has been destroyed, yet in my flesh will I see God; I myself will see Him with my own eyes...I, and not another. How my heart yearns within me !!" Job 19:25-27
Be at peace, Joseph, the Savior waits...
The Shoemakers in Annapolis MD

Anonymous said...

Our hearts are hurting as we think of your precious family and the heartbreak that you are experiencing. We are praying that God's presence will be so very real to you in the days ahead as you spend this precious time with Joseph.
"The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Psalm 34:6
We love you! Mike & Roxanna Mobley

Anonymous said...

Praying and asking God for His tender mercy to be with all of you...can't sleep and wishing I was in Memphis to help you, Allen and Gillian, get through the night. Jenny sent me the pictures of the late night birthday celebration. Sweet, sweet, Joseph...I know he loved getting those bites of chocolate cup cake.
I am praying that you will know that God is right there with you, holding you, Holly, and Joseph. We will be waiting for your return home tomorrow. Let us know if we can do anything before you arrive home.
With love, Mimi
Tell Joseph that Mimi loves him as wide as I can open my arms and to the sky and back and beyond...
"Be still and know that I am God"

anna said...

Dear Allen & Gillian,

Can't sleep for thinking of you all and praying for you, for mercy, for hope even in darkness and sorrow. Peace be with you.

Anna Caudill

Anonymous said...

Gillian & Allen

Our hearts are broken. I know that the next couple of days will be filled with love and heartbreak. Hoping you have the peace and strength you all need.

love you all , all our love
Ann Ben the boys

ingrid and james said...

gillian and allen, we are so sorry to hear this most sad new about joseph.you have done all you could and more. it has been amazing to see joseph enjoying so life much over the last few months. thank you for sharing the time with us. it has been very special and has meant a lot to us. you have been wonderful. we wish you peace in the coming days with joseph. all our love to you all. kisses for joseph and holly. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

alice said...

Dear Gill and Allen,
We're all so sad to hear the news. Wishing you strength and love over the next few days and forever. Sending all our love and peace for you all.
Love from Alice and Maud.
xxxxxx

trmills said...

Oh, friends. So many people love you, so many are grieving and hurting with you, and we are among them. Praying that these days will be full in supernatural ways. Oh, how we wish we could help carry your burden in a more tangible way. We send so much love to you.

Siobhan said...

So truly sad to hear this latest news. Your strength and courage continues to be amazing and I know you will find what you need now. Thank you for always sharing your emotional journey with us. We feel priviledged to be a part of your lives. Wishing you all peace in the coming days.
Siobhan, Will & Finn xxx

read2kds said...

Broken hearted that we live in this broken world...praying that God would give you sweet comfort far beyond your understanding and that your darling Joseph would be comfortable and happy.

Amy in NC

Dave, Ami, Hadleigh Claire and Annelise said...

praying.

Allison said...

You are in my constant thoughts and prayers...

-Allison Collier

Anonymous said...

You all are in my constant thoughts and prayers...

Allison Collier

Anonymous said...

Dear Gillian and Allen,

I am a friend of Kate Etue. She has asked us and our church to pray for you, and we are praying. We send our love to you and to Joseph.

Jennifer Cortez
Immanuel Church, Nashville

Chloe said...

Canal Bank Walk, Patrick Kavanagh

Leafy-with-love banks and the green waters of the canal
Pouring redemption for me, that I do
The will of God, wallow in the habitual, the banal,
Grow with nature again as before I grew.
The bright stick trapped, the breeze adding a third
Party to the couple kissing on an old seat,
And a bird gathering materials for the nest for the Word
Eloquently new and abandoned to its delirious beat.
O unworn world enrapture me, encapture me in a web
Of fabulous grass and eternal voices by a beech,
Feed the gaping need of my senses, give me ad lib
To pray unselfconsciously with overflowing speech
For this soul needs to be honoured with a new dress woven
From green and blue things and arguments that cannot be proven.


I am completely heartbroken and speechless. Hoping for peace and happiness in the coming days for all of you with Joe. Know that you have done your utmost. Like a bolt of lightening, Joe has provided so much light, love and amazement in a short time. He has been called for greater things.

Look after each other.
Love Chloe

Margaret said...

I love you all. Margaret

Chris Austin said...

We are so sorry! Our hearts are so broken for all of you. I don't know what to say other than we come to love that boy although we have never met him. He has stolen our hearts. His enthusiasm, tender heart and spirit is an inspiration to all of us.

susan and brian said...

Our little angels will be there to welcome him when Joseph goes to meet his Maker. They can look after one another.

So sorry to hear the latest news. Our hearts go out to all of you, you are constantly in our thoughts.

jane said...

We are grieving with y'all and praying for Joseph's joyful return to his heavenly Father...
you are in our prayers,
jane and andrew

John and Sue Burch said...

Dear loved ones of Jesus - Yes, you are loved by Him and by so many others... just look at how many people are holding you before the Father now. Our hearts are so sad, and praying that you know in a very special way His comfort, closeness and strength and that sweet precious little Joseph will know He is going to be with Jesus! We love you from afar. John and Sue Burch

Jean Joiner said...

we are praying for the LORD to sustain you during all of this. so sorry to hear this hearbreaking news.

love,
jean (for the joiner family)

Anonymous said...

Allen and Gillian, I'm not sure how to start. I was broken by the news, lay awake throughout the night, and paced aimlessly through the house with a mix of sorrow and anger. And I can not comprehend what you both are feeling right now. We are so sorry for what you must bear. I know that everyone who has written here, and many others as well, are holding dear Joseph, and both of you and Holly, close to our hearts.
J.R. and Juliette

Anonymous said...

Dear Allen and Gillian,
I have been reading your blog daily since Joseph's diagnosis--without comment, but definitely with prayer and thought--and I am so sad to hear this news. I pray that God will truly uphold your family and grant you supernatural strength and peace through this terrible trial. We love your family,
Sara Camp

Julia said...

I am praying that you all experience an abundance of love, peace and hope during this difficult time and that God brings comfort like you've never known before. My family and I are all praying...

With much prayer,
Julia (Maines) Medearis

Amanda said...

I heard your story through the Finney's and my heart is going out towards you. I pray that during this time, you will cling to Truth, love on each other, and have some joyful moments in the midst of one of the hardest times.
Zeph 3:17. The Lord God is with you, He is mighty to save, He takes great delight in you, He quiets you with His love, He rejoices over you with singing.
I pray that you: feel the His closeness, know His way of saving Joseph, allow Him to quiet you when you are beyond upset, and know that He is singing a song over you...as soft lullaby or a powerful anthem of your lives.

Love in Christ,
Amanda

Household6 said...

I'm praying for your precious little boy and for your family during this time.

Heather

Anonymous said...

Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family...

Tara and Gareth Lewis

Heather said...

I just came across your blog and wanted to say that I am praying for your family and Joseph. I hope your next days with Joseph are filled with peace and love. I am so very sorry.

Sissy Kimbrell said...

Happy Birthday Joe!! We are fervently praying for you and your family. May Christ hold you in his arms and give you peace. We are grieving for you and your family.
Peace and Love,
Brandon, Sissy and Mac

Brea said...

Oh, Gillian and Allen, I hope it is some comfort to know that you are not alone in your grief. We are weeping and grieving with you today. We are also thanking God for Joseph's life and the precious time He has given you with him and praying that somehow your hearts will be supernaturally comforted.

This verse brings me comfort in the face of such suffering, and I hope it comforts your hearts as well:
"We set our eyes not on what is seen but on what is unseen, for what is seen is temporary, what is unseen is eternal." 2 Cor 4:18

We love you guys and are praying for you all.

notes from em said...

our hearts and our bodies are aching with sadness for you all. but we have a hope in a newly restored body for Joseph and a life that is far better than the one had here on earth. we cry with you.
love
drew and emily

Heinzfeet said...

Gillian and Allen,
My friend, Carrie, shared this verse last night and it was so powerful I just had to put it on here. It seemed like the one thing that felt like a balm for the pain.

Isaiah 25:8-9
He will swallow up death forever. The Sovereign LORD will wipe away the tears from all faces; he will remove the disgrace of his people
from all the earth. The LORD has spoken.

9 In that day they will say, "Surely this is our God; we trusted in him, and he saved us. This is the LORD, we trusted in him; let us rejoice and be glad in his salvation."

Anonymous said...

No guilt in life, no fear in death; This is the power of Christ in me. From life's first cry to final breath Jesus commands my destiny. No power of hell, no scheme of man can ever pluck me from His hand; til He returns or calls me home, Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.

On Christ the solid Rock I stand; all other ground is sinking sand. All other ground is sinking sand.

In all things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:37-39

Chipper said...

Gillian and Allen,

I second what everyone else is saying. I am so heartbroken for your family. Amy and I will be praying for your family for strength and peace. May God's Holy Spirit comfort you.

Meg said...

I have no words, but am continuing to pray for you all. Though we have never met him, Joseph's battle has touched me and my family tremendously. I ache for you as parents and have found a new determination in praying both for your family and for my own. My daughter who is 5 has also learned great lessons in praying for others and often requests prayer for Joseph even though she doesn't quite understand or know him. I pray for peace and comfort for you all. You are a great inspiration to all of us!
Meg Bloomer and family
Orlando, FL

vclement said...

I've been reading this blog for some time now and I am so sorry to hear this news. You are in my thoughts and prayers these next few days.

Ginna

Rosie said...

Allen and Gillian,
I am praying for you to have the strength to get through these next few days. I am so sorry you have to experience this pain.
Love- Rosie Udouj

Emilie said...

I'm so sorry to hear this- you guys are in my thoughts and prayers constantly.

Love,

Emilie

Anonymous said...

Precious Family, we have never met, but i've followed your blog since last November thru NHA. How you have been able to journal this journey is only God's grace. You have ministered to me in such a powerful way. Thank you for letting us in your life to love, pray, and grieve.
God knew the parents your precious Joseph was gonna need. I stand in amazement of God in you.
My momma's heart is breaking for you. May you know the peace and Presence of God.
I'm so sorry...tina

The Johnson Kids said...

I cannot stop the tears as I read this. Know that you are in our fervent prayers.I am so sad and so sorry to hear this. Will pray for Joseph's comfort and for the Lord to comfort you during this impossible time.

Kit & Natalie said...

Dearest Peabody family,
We are so so sorry to hear this sad news about dear Joseph. We cannot imagine the emotions that you are feeling, but please know that we are praying continuously for Joseph and your family.
May the grace of God our Father, the love of Christ Jesus, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be and abide with you both now and forevermore,
the Ozburn family

Jason said...

Allen and Gillian,

Jason and I are crying and praying for you today and these upcoming days as well. Our hearts are grieving for you all.

Love,
Kristin

Anonymous said...

Gillian, it was been too long of a time since I have reached out as I have not had the words. I think of you all quite often. I send my love, thoughts, prayers and admiration for your strength. Joseph has such a special mom and knows how much he is deeply loved.

Anita said...

(((HUGS))) My heart is broken reading about your precious son. I pray that you all have peace and that little Joseph will be pain free. May God be with all of you.

Julie said...

I know I don't know you, but my heart breaks for you and your precious Joseph. Please know that all of you are in my prayers, and that I will be hoping for the next few days to be peaceful ones filled with good, although bittersweet, memories.

--Julie Green

Anonymous said...

i have been silently following your story and had to comment this morning. my heart is breaking for you. i too am praying for your family and for sweet, sweet joe.

julie
praying in brentwood, tn

Anonymous said...

Dear Allen and Gillian:

You don't know me but I heard about Joe P's blog and I have been following your story since day one. Though we have never met, I feel as if I know you and Joseph and I definitely feel your pain through the warm and sincere words you share with the world daily. Your family is one of the most courageous I have ever seen and my prayers are continually with you. Today there will be a graduation ceremony at my school and I have set it up so that there will be a short moment of silence and prayer for your family from those who attend. God bless all of you!

Jessica said...

My heart is breaking for you right now. I am so sorry that Joseph and your family is having to go through this. All I can do is pray, so I will, fervently, for everything you've requested. I don't know you, but I'm a friend of a friend, and will pray for God's peace that passes all understanding to fill your home in the next days/weeks come.

Elizabeth Myatt said...

What a blessing that you all know the Lord and can rest in the hope that Joseph will be restored...body and soul. Thank you for letting us walk this journey with your family, it has changed me. Praying for sweet times in the coming days.

susan said...

Dearest Allen and Gillian,

Know that our hearts weep with you. Thank you for sharing what is going on with Joseph.

Anonymous said...

Our hearts are breaking. We continue to pray for all of you and trust that God will bring you peace in the coming days.

Karin & David

Anonymous said...

Dearest friends...Know we love you with all our hearts...I weep for you and for your suffering as you see your prescious treasure suffer the ravages of disease. I pray the Lord will carry you....that you will feel His arms....that you will know His presence. I only wish we could be with you there. Brian just had to go get Ksush at school because she is crying so much she just can't stay there...we love you with all our hearts dearest Gillian and Allen and Joseph and Holly.

Mollie said...

Gillian and Allen,

Mark and I continue to pray for you and your family. We are so very sorry and know that God's mighty and gentle hands have carried you all this entire journey! We will pray, pray, pray. Our hearts are with you. Joseph has touched us deeply.

Love, Mollie

tracey said...

Joseph - Happy Birthday...we love you!
Allen and Gillian...we are so sad to hear this news. In tears and praying for you.
love, tracey and chad

Betsy Huey said...

Dear Peabodys,

My heart breaks for you with this heavy news. Please know that we are praying for you.

May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord make His face shine upon you and be gracious unto you. May He give you peace that surpasses understanding.

Love,
Betsy

Jaime said...

Heartbroken. Crying and praying.

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Anonymous said...

My heart is so sad for your family, and I am praying that your last days with Joseph will be filled with peace and love.

Anonymous said...

Sweet Joseph is such a testimony of God's grace and strength---what a trooper!

May our great covenant-keeping God uphold ALL of your precious family, and surround you with His comfort, strength and lovingkindness.

with love,
Carol

nicole said...

We are praying for you all.

Wright Family said...

our hearts are broken for you. i dreamed about joseph all night and woke up very early this morning praying for him. we are praying for you all and we grieve with you.
the wrights

Anonymous said...

Thinking and praying for you constantly. In my heart, it feels like you are my adopted family. I pray that God will cover you with overwhelming love and peace. Susan M

Anonymous said...

We are praying for peace and comfort for each of you. Our hearts are broken, we love you.
Christy and Greg Wright

About Janice said...

There is infinite grace and mercy; praying you all will know it infinitely. I will be praying throughout the next several days.

wburn fam said...

Tears flow for a little boy I've never met..I'm so sorry to read this latest post. Jennifer is a friend of mine, so I've kept up with you all through her blog and yours. I'll continue to pray.

Beth Winterburn

Allison said...

I don't know that I have ever posted before. But, my name is Allison and I have been praying for your precious boy for a long time. Since, you found out about his cancer.

I got up this morning and just started praying for J and felt led to come here right now. Know that Joseph's life has greatly impacted my life. My life as a believer has gotten stronger by watching your faithfulness during this time in your life.

I am praying that these last few days are filled with the Holy Spirit. That He would wrap His arms so tightly around you and your whole family, especially Joseph. Also, your sweet Holly who loves her big brother so.

I can just see Joseph now, healed and in the arms of our Savior. Thank you for sharing your sweet, precious boy with me.

In Him,
Allison McLendon

Anonymous said...

praying that you would feel the arms of our Lord holding you now and in the days ahead. much love, Jenn & Eric Van Zee

Susan said...

Praying for sweet Joseph and for your family.

Anonymous said...

I have been reading for a while and I don't have words to express my sympathy. My daughter's best friend lost his battle this year after a 5 year battle. I am still praying for your miracle. If Joseph does not receive his healing this side of heaven, he most certainly will on the other side. Praying for God's grace and strength for you as his parents. God bless you all.
Allison, NC

Amy Spiker said...

There are no words... Those of us who have been touched by Joseph's life and your willingness to be open and share are forever changed because of this amazing child. I awoke last night with you heavy on my heart and now I know why I was called to pray fervently. I will continue to do so. Happy birthday, Joseph! I am celebrating your life today, too!

Anonymous said...

I wish I had words to say to help. Know that we love you guys and are praying for you. I pray that you find the sufficiency you need in Christ and those around you who love you all very much.

Catherine

Anonymous said...

i am heartbroken as i read this. i have followed your blog and prayed for a miracle. i am still praying.
"The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit" -Psalm 34:18
-David and Brittany Spence

Anonymous said...

Praying for you all and for your sweet Joseph.

Anonymous said...

Allen and Gillian,
Even though I do not know you, I have been keeping up and praying for your sweet little boy. You all have come to mind multiple times and I am praying for you in these difficult days. May Joseph and all those who love him find rest in Jesus as you prepare for his eternal homegoing. grace.

Texasmom said...

I've been following Joseph's story and am very saddened by the recent news. Thank God he has y'all as his parents to see him through this. Best wishes, condolences, and God Bless Joseph.

Wifeof1Momof4 said...

I have no words right now, only prayers for Joseph and your family. I am sooo sorry.

Jiggs said...

I am so very sorry to learn that God's healing of Joseph has not been the healing that I ... that we ... wanted it to be.

Please know that we continue in prayer for Joseph and for all of you for God's healing and His peace and His love and His continued guidance as you make the decisions with which you are confronted.

With continued Love and Prayer from Kansas City ...

Catherine said...

I am so sorry Gillian. You and your precious son are in my thoughts. You have always been someone I've admired, and I am inspired by your strength, compassion, and devotion even during this extremely trying time. You are a truly remarkable person. My family sends their love.

-Kate Sharoky

So Blessed said...

I am praying for your family today...and the Holy Spirit is interceding,too, on your behalf. May our loving Father give each of you the strength and comfort you need for this time...and give you His peace that passeth all understanding. Though we can not understand this, we can trust the One who created Joseph and loves him with a love we cannot even quite grasp...the only love that is stronger than a parent's for their child is God's love. My heart is so heavy for what you are enduring.

carolyn and dave said...

Gill & Allen,

I know your strength right now is coming from the Lord. I pray he gives you everything you need right now. Sweet Joe P. is in our thought and prayers.

Love you guys and I'm praying for Joseph to have a sweet, precious time with you all and for him to be comforted by our great Father.

Your family is beautiful and shining bright in Christ.

Thank you for sharing your lives with us. Your courage in leading an examined life amazes me.

Carolyn & Dave

Anonymous said...

Joining with everyone who is praying for each of you, that the Lord will continue to make His presence known, and especially for Joseph, to know freedom from pain as he crosses into heaven. How kind of God to provide you with clear comforting direction at this time. With love, Lynn Culver

Anonymous said...

Joining with everyone who is praying for each of you, that the Lord will continue to make His presence known, and especially for Joseph, to know freedom from pain as he crosses into heaven. How kind of God to provide you with clear comforting direction at this time. With love, Lynn Culver

Mommy to those Special Ks said...

Oh gosh, I'm so sorry. I have been following your story for a long, long time and praying for Joseph and your family. I'm just speechless right now. My heart breaks for you all. Please know we're praying in Clarksville that Joseph's time here is pain free and filled with memories. God bless you all.
The Garcia Family
Frank, Renee, Kassidy, Kameron, Kennedy & Keeghan
www.myspecialks.com
www.carepages.com site name: KennedyGarcia

Anonymous said...

I am praying that the peace of God wich surpasses all understanding will guide your hearts and your minds.

love to you all,
Marion Seese

Stacy said...

I found your blog some time ago and have been following Joseph's progress. So sorry to read this latest entry. My heart is heavy as I look at your beautiful son. Praying for God's peace and strength and comfort for you all and for Joseph to be pain free.

Abbie said...

Gillian, Allen, Joseph, and Holly. My heart is so heavy with grief.
I long for Jesus to comfort you and sustain you throughout this.
I am praying without ceasing for you today.
With love,
Abbie

The Morris Gang said...

Gillian,
Praying that you will be "Held" by Christ in these days. There are no words...you are loved in Chattanooga.
Jennifer & Jason

The Morris Gang said...

Gillian,
Praying that you will be "Held" by Christ in these days. There are no words...you all are loved in Chattanooga.

Anonymous said...

I am so sad to hear this news and am praying for Joseph and your entire family.

Anonymous said...

Dear Friends, you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. My heart is breaking for you. For some reason this came to mind so I thought I would share it. I love you.

Amelia

I bind unto myself today
The power of God to hold and lead,
His eye to watch, His might to stay,
His ear to hearken to my need.
The wisdom of my God to teach,
His hand to guide, his shield to ward,
The word of God to give me speech,
His heavenly host to be my guard.

Christ be with me, Christ within me,
Christ behind me, Christ before me,
Christ beside me, Christ to win me,
Christ to comfort and restore me,
Christ beneath me, Christ above me,
Christ in quiet, Christ in danger,
Christ in hearts of all that love me,
Christ in mouth of friend and stranger.

I bind unto myself the name,
The strong name of the Trinity;
By invocation of the same.
The Three in One, and One in Three,
Of whom all nature hath creation,
Eternal Father, Spirit, Word:
Praise to the Lord of my salvation,
salvation is of Christ the Lord.

Anonymous said...

Dear Gillian & Allen, I only know of you through our son and daughter-in-law, Dan & Laura. I have been following your journey with little Joseph and praying for all of you for the past seven months. I have also recruited many of my family members here in Tucson to join in prayers for a miracle for Joseph. Little did we know that the miracle would happen, not on earth, but in heaven! Amidst the pain and sorrow, the only comfort comes from believing that Joseph will truly be healed and loved and held in God's arms forever! My heart breaks for you now. Your faith has been so encouraging. I can truly say that I will look forward to meeting little Joseph in heaven!
Love & prayers,
Liz Rollman

Anonymous said...

Always praying for your family and sweet little Joe! He is truly a " Brave Little Soul"!!!
Kristi P (Jackson TN)

The Morreys (Erin) said...

I am so, so heartbroken to hear this news. I will be praying for comfort and peace for all of you, and especially for Joseph.

UKNat said...

Praying for you in Nashville. Natalie

Anonymous said...

Dear Gillian & Allen,

As part of God's fellowship of believers here in Nashville, we are praying for your precious family.

"But those who trust in the Lord will receive new strength. They will fly as high as eagles. They will run and not get tired. They will walk and not grow weak." - Isaiah 40:31

Blessings and peace to you all in Christ Jesus,

Libby & Will Ayers

Jill said...

Dear Gillian and Allen
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at the moment. I've sent all my angels to be at Joe's side and to keep you strong.

All my love,

Jill O'Herlihy

sarah knight said...

Dear Gillian,
I am so sad. I don't know what to say. I am crying and I am praying for all of you.
Love,
Sarah

Meredith said...

Praying for you today in Texas. May God surround Joseph and you all with His comfort.

Anonymous said...

I have been following Joseph's story for awhile and I am so sorry to hear this sad news. My prayers for peace and comfort are with your family.
~Elise

Cristi Hillis said...

Allen and Gillian-- Was so sorry to read your update today. Am praying for you guys...
Much love,
Cristi

Sarah Partain said...

...praying for you as you drive home...

The Trone's: James, Misty, and Bella Grace said...

praying constantly...

Anonymous said...

We are soo sad to hear of Joseph's latest prognosis. We are heartbroken with you. May the Lord wrap you all in His loving, comforting embrace and help you all, as youcontinue to love and care for Joseph in his last days/hours. We love you and are praying for you all. Love, Chrissie and Rick

courtney said...

Joe and all of you have been on my mind and in my thoughts and prayers all day. "The Lord our God is with you; He is mighty to save. The Lord will take great delight in you. He will quiet you with His love. He will rejoice over you with singing."
This verse keeps coming up in my prayers. You are all so very loved.

amyoutlaw said...

I'm crying with ya'll and for ya'll. You're in my prayers. Got your link from Coy's blog.
Amy

Anonymous said...

Jesus, I long for thee
And sigh for Canaan's shore
Thy lovely face to see
And all my warfare o'er
Here billows break upon my breast
And brooding sorrows steal my rest

I pant, I groan, I grieve
For my untoward heart
How full of doubts I live
Though full of grace thou art!
What poor returns, I make to thee
For all the mercy shown to me!

And must I ever smart,
A child of sorrows here?
Yet, Lord be near my heart,
To soothe each rising tear,
Then at thy bleeding cross I'll stay,
And sweetly weep my life away.

(The Gatsby Hymnal, John Berridge)

Q's NEWS said...

Dear Gillian & Allen,

I am speechless - it has only been a few days since I checked in - how can this be? My thoughts and prayers are with you all - I don't know what else to say - I'm so sorry.

Love from WV,
Susan

Anonymous said...

I came across your blog through a friend some time ago, and have been praying for Joseph and your family. I was very saddened by your news, and I will continue to pray for peace and comfort for your family and Joseph.

Jennifer said...

You and your sweet family are in my prayers. My heart aches for all that you are enduring, now and in the days to come. Please know that Joseph has touched so many lives and is so loved -- even by those of us who have never met him.

Brooke said...

My heart hurts so much and yet, I can hardly even imagine what you are going through. Your strength and faith are amazing to me. We are praying for you and your family. So glad that the quality of life doctor was a blessing. I'll be praying for more blessings in these upcoming days and that you would all have the peace of our Lord in your hearts and surrounding your every move and thought. We love you all so much. Big hugs and a special happy birthday from Anne Marie to Joe P.
Brooke and Family

Anonymous said...

Gillian and Allen,
My heart is so heavy for you and your sweet Joseph. My family is praying that our loving Father be merciful and gracious to you. We pray that He equips you with strength and puts a protective hedge around your family.
In His Love,

Allison Price
Baton Rouge, LA

Cindy Lawrence said...

What a journey you have been on and continue to be on. I pray for your hearts not to hurt and your baby to feel happiness and joy while at home with you. It is hard to find anything to be positive about in times like these....just stick together as a couple and love each other.

EDV said...

Dear Gillian and Allen,


Our hearts pain to hear this update. We grieve with you and pray for peace. We love you and you are constantly on our hearts and minds right now. Joseph is a very special boy.


Eric and Ruthie Vincill

Sarah Norsworthy said...

my heart breaks to hear this. I am continuing to pray for you all... especially for strength, peace and understanding... I will pray that Christ will be all of those for you during this time. Love you all,
Sarah